Not 100% yet


Mon, Tue, Wed & Thur – 10×10 2hs w/8kg, 2 yoga sessions (Mon & Wed)

Fri – 5×10 2hs w/12kg
Sat – 10×10 2hs w/12kg, 60 min yin yoga

Saturday 6 hours later – INTENSE pain in upper back/chest area. Heart attack? Muscle spasm? Shifted into an ache and then went away so decided it was muscle spasm/strain. Frustrated but dealing.

Sunday – no swinging.

Plan for this week? Try Pavel’s program again. Start with the 8kg for a couple days and then increase to 12kg and see how it goes. Stick with dh for another week. Add 1/2 naked TGUs.  Restorative/Yin yoga and casual walking.

Talked with a 80+ year-old woman yesterday and she reminded me of how important it is to keep moving.  Keep striving.  She gave up years ago and now she is dealing with the consequences of her inactivity.  Funny isn’t it that the 80+ year old is one of the few people in my life that ISN’T telling to ‘take it easy’?

On that note – I’m putting on my shoes and heading out for a walk this morning.  Nice, crisp Autumn morning – love this time of the year!  I’ll follow it up with my 10×10 swings and TGU for the day.

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StrongFirst article


There’s an article on StrongFirst written by Gabby Eborall about working out and the ‘older’ woman.   Perhaps I live in a vacuum but this is exactly what I was wishing to find a week or so ago – someone who is in my age bracket and recognizes that not every 50+ year old woman can work out as a 30 year old woman.  It’s worth reading.

This week I started back swinging my bells.  I’m starting with 10×10 double handed swings with the 8kg (18 pound) bell.  It feels like I’m swinging air bells.  However, I’m trying to be patient and not push too hard.

Everyone in my life seems to think that it was the kettlebells that caused my injury and are issuing warnings to take it easy and saying things like “are you sure you should be swinging kettle bells?”  What makes people who don’t exercise – who don’t know anything about kettlebells (other than watching Jillian Michaels on the biggest loser) think they have any basis for offering these warnings.  Right.  It would be better for me to sit on the couch with my finger up my backside, right?

Oh, I know they are only concerned and I do appreciate that concern (don’t get your panties in a wad, family & friends, if you are reading this).  However, I am quite well read and educated on kettlebells and I’ve been swinging them for quite a while, and I have been to several RKC/SFG trainers over the last couple years (the last one told me I had excellent form – especially for someone who was relatively self-taught).

I’m going to proceed with Pavel’s S&S program (swings & TGU) and see how it goes.  IF I have this issue again, I’ll reconsider my kettlebell workouts but for now – it’s business as usual.

Side note – hopefully by getting back into exercising, my food will fall back into line.  I’m really having massive struggles with addictive eating lately.  I know it.  I recognize it but when faced with it – I succumb to it.

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Curvy Yoga – Anna Guest Jelley


I’ve ‘known’ Anna of Curvy Yoga for awhile now.  I’m not sure how I discovered her but I’m glad I did.  I once contributed a picture of me doing yoga at the beach to her Curvy Yoga Gallery.  Now THAT took courage!

Anna had an article on Maria Shriver‘s site this week that actually resonates with me more than the 28 day love your body challenge – although it is certainly in a similar vein.

Here is an excerpt of her article, Three questions to ask to become your best you:

1. What do I need on a daily basis to stay connected to my body and grounded in the world?Keep this simple, including 2-4 things you know you can do no matter what. Examples include: start the day with a glass of water, pause for 3 deep breaths, turn off all devices 30 minutes before bed or do 5 minutes of yoga.

2. What do I need on a weekly basis to remind myself that I am deserving of my own love and attention? Choose 1-2 slightly more in-depth things here. Again, it’s critical that you can actually do these most every week, given your current schedule, relationships, etc. Examples might include calling a friend for 30 minutes, writing a poem or attending an exercise class you love.

3. What do I need on a monthly basis to remind myself that my body is whole, trustworthy and enough, just as it is? Finally, choose 1-2 even more in-depth items, like a hike in the woods, a long lunch with your BFF, spending a full day with your email off, etc.

On a personal note, I had a facet joint injection yesterday in my L4/L5 spinal region.  It was not a painful process at all.  It was done with a doctor and under CT Scan guidance.  My pain had pretty much gone away prior to yesterday so it will really be difficult to know whether it ‘solved’ the problem or not – since the problem basically went away on its own.

I’ve consulted with my family PT (well, he will graduate from PT school in May!) on whether and how to get back to swinging my bells and beating up my boxing bag.  He’s recommended I make an appointment or two with the local physiotherapist – who hopefully has experience with orthopedic issues and can perhaps give me some smart lumbar area/core strengthening exercises to help prevent this issue from happening again.

In the meantime, I’m road walking (increased my distance today by about 1/3) and doing yoga.

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Molly Galbraith’s 28 day challenge


I’m going to do Molly Galbraith’s 28 day challenge.  It’s called ‘Love your Body’.

Yesterday I answered her 10 questions to track my starting point.  I had a score of 60.

Today’s mantra and action step (quoted from Molly’s blog):

My body is my home. It’s the ONLY place I have to live.  I will treat it with the care and respect it deserves.”

Repeat this (to yourself or out loud) 10 times right now,  10 times during your action step, and 10 times before bed.

Action Step: Do one really nice thing to take care of yourself today.  Maybe it’s a bubble bath, maybe it’s deep conditioner in your hair, or maybe it’s a few minutes in the steam room at the gym, whatever.  Just do it, and while you are doing it, repeat your mantra to yourself 10 times.  When you’re done with that, then just simply enjoy what you’re doing.

No work, no kids, no emails.  Try to experience what you’re doing with all of your senses, and clear your mind.

Here’s MY deal though…..all the pictures of these professionals (on Molly’s blog) showing their FLAWS and how they are embracing their FLAWS and loving themselves in spite of their FLAWS…..well, that’s all well and good but seriously….I can’t relate.  I can potentially LEARN from what they are writing – but I look at their 20 and 30 year old bodies and I think to myself “talk to me when you’re 55”.  “Talk to me when you shave your legs in the shower and your bat wings wiggle back and forth so much that you wonder what kind of animal has suddenly attached itself to you.”  “Talk to me about the deflated, flabby tummy from once weighing 300 pounds and now NOT weighing 300 pounds.”

Yes – I totally know that I am responsible for the condition of my body.  And trust me – I’m so grateful to be where I am today rather than where I was 5+ years ago.  I totally know that I will never have firm triceps.  I totally know that my years of abusing my body – my continued abuse of my body –  has lead to the condition I am currently in.  However, I would just love to hear more about middle-aged women and what they do and how they continue to strive to be the healthiest possible.

Are there middle-aged fitness professionals out there in this demographic?  Every young female fitness professional I’ve talked to  – well, let me just say that my experience is that they are fairly clueless on what I, as a 55 year old, experience.  Through no fault of their own – and I’m seriously not dissin’ them – they just don’t KNOW.  And men fitness professionals?  Don’t even get me started.  Doctors?  Clueless as far as fitness goes.

So where does that leave me when I want to get back into shape?  When I’ve been on the couch for a month with a back/hip injury but am now ready to build back up to my former fitness level?  Who the fuck do I go to for advice?  For help?  To help me determine what is enough and what is too much or not enough?

YES!  I AM ANGRY!  I AM FRUSTRATED!  And I just need to vent.

(I feel a little bit better now.  <SMILE>)

Today was the 2nd day I went for a 30 minute walk.  I was winded just walking up the hill.  This totally sucks.  Less than 6 months ago I was doing 60 minutes of bush walking, up and down hills in the mud and muck each morning.  I wasn’t just DOING it, I was BARRELLING through it.  And I was swinging kettle bells and following a strenuous kettle bell program and I was loving it and I felt better than I had ever felt.  Today I was winded walking up a frickin’ gradual hill.  I am NOT happy about it.  However, I know I am the only one that can change it.  And I also know that I can’t change it overnight.

Baby steps.  And belief.

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Maybe I’m back? Not sure.

1164 one of the hardest

I’m thinking about blogging again.  I seem to be more accountable if I’m blogging.  I’ve been inactive now for a month due to a back/hip injury.  I’m still not 100%.  I’m sure I’ve put on 5 kilos (10-12 pounds).  I don’t want to weigh 300 pounds again.  I went for a 30 minute walk this morning and honestly?  It wore me out.  One month of inactivity and I’ve fallen so far.  I don’t like it.

Also, my food is out of control.  I don’t like how I feel.

My main thought – I’m not sure how honest I can be when I know that this is a public blog.  I’m tempted to set it to private – invitation only.  Then again – it’s helpful to me when I read others blogs – especially women of my age (there aren’t many that I can find).  So, I’m in a quandary… or not?  public or private?  honest or hold back some?

I’m not sure yet.

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