I’m going to do Molly Galbraith’s 28 day challenge. It’s called ‘Love your Body’.
Yesterday I answered her 10 questions to track my starting point. I had a score of 60.
Today’s mantra and action step (quoted from Molly’s blog):
“My body is my home. It’s the ONLY place I have to live. I will treat it with the care and respect it deserves.”
Repeat this (to yourself or out loud) 10 times right now, 10 times during your action step, and 10 times before bed.
Action Step: Do one really nice thing to take care of yourself today. Maybe it’s a bubble bath, maybe it’s deep conditioner in your hair, or maybe it’s a few minutes in the steam room at the gym, whatever. Just do it, and while you are doing it, repeat your mantra to yourself 10 times. When you’re done with that, then just simply enjoy what you’re doing.
No work, no kids, no emails. Try to experience what you’re doing with all of your senses, and clear your mind.
Here’s MY deal though…..all the pictures of these professionals (on Molly’s blog) showing their FLAWS and how they are embracing their FLAWS and loving themselves in spite of their FLAWS…..well, that’s all well and good but seriously….I can’t relate. I can potentially LEARN from what they are writing – but I look at their 20 and 30 year old bodies and I think to myself “talk to me when you’re 55”. “Talk to me when you shave your legs in the shower and your bat wings wiggle back and forth so much that you wonder what kind of animal has suddenly attached itself to you.” “Talk to me about the deflated, flabby tummy from once weighing 300 pounds and now NOT weighing 300 pounds.”
Yes – I totally know that I am responsible for the condition of my body. And trust me – I’m so grateful to be where I am today rather than where I was 5+ years ago. I totally know that I will never have firm triceps. I totally know that my years of abusing my body – my continued abuse of my body – has lead to the condition I am currently in. However, I would just love to hear more about middle-aged women and what they do and how they continue to strive to be the healthiest possible.
Are there middle-aged fitness professionals out there in this demographic? Every young female fitness professional I’ve talked to – well, let me just say that my experience is that they are fairly clueless on what I, as a 55 year old, experience. Through no fault of their own – and I’m seriously not dissin’ them – they just don’t KNOW. And men fitness professionals? Don’t even get me started. Doctors? Clueless as far as fitness goes.
So where does that leave me when I want to get back into shape? When I’ve been on the couch for a month with a back/hip injury but am now ready to build back up to my former fitness level? Who the fuck do I go to for advice? For help? To help me determine what is enough and what is too much or not enough?
YES! I AM ANGRY! I AM FRUSTRATED! And I just need to vent.
(I feel a little bit better now. <SMILE>)
Today was the 2nd day I went for a 30 minute walk. I was winded just walking up the hill. This totally sucks. Less than 6 months ago I was doing 60 minutes of bush walking, up and down hills in the mud and muck each morning. I wasn’t just DOING it, I was BARRELLING through it. And I was swinging kettle bells and following a strenuous kettle bell program and I was loving it and I felt better than I had ever felt. Today I was winded walking up a frickin’ gradual hill. I am NOT happy about it. However, I know I am the only one that can change it. And I also know that I can’t change it overnight.
Baby steps. And belief.